Quietness

Hey :)

My parents like to wonder why I'm always so quiet around the house or when we're going out. They like to assume I'm sad and gloomy when actually I'm not. Sometimes I just don't feel like talking and I like the silence of not talking. 

I'm not always like this. Sometimes when I'm hanging out with friends we will laugh together and when I talk excitedly my voice would go up so high. However, sometimes it's awkward between me and someone I'm barely close to due to the fact that we won't talk because I'm not good at starting the conversation. And also I'm rather awkward. 

There are times when I'm quiet because I was actually sad. Sometimes because I overthink on something and I'll tend to worry, sometimes I'm sad for no reason, and sometimes because something depressing happened and I want to shut everyone out. There are times that I'm quiet because I'm alone. When I'm alone at college, I'll stay in my hostel room and just stare at my laptop and maybe go buy food a little bit and I like it that way. When I'm alone elsewhere like a place, a mall, I would wonder around the place myself and look around without the feeling of being bothered by someone and I like that way, too. 

Sometimes it's not because I like being like this all the time, it's just because there are times where I want to feel this way. Alone, in my own world once in a while. You can say I'm an introvert and also an extrovert. It's nice to be around friends or someone you love because these people give you a part of your happiness but sometimes, quietness is nice. 

There are also other reasons why I'm quiet, for example:- 

1. When I just woke up (I'm sure I'm not the only one like this) 
2. When I'm hungry 
3. When I'm stressed out over something
4. When I have nothing to say in my group of friends because sometimes I just like to listen to people 
5. When I feel like shit 
6. When I just don't feel like talking 
7. etc. 

So there's that. Hopefully, I'm not the only one having these kinds of situations. I like being quiet but it's also nice to talk and have fun with friends or family. 

Thank you for reading.